Een klassiek verhaal van een schietpartij op school

Door Groundzero gepubliceerd op Wednesday 07 May 19:25

De schietpartij die volgde na een pesterij schokte het hele land. De 18-jarige ex-leerling is Sebastian Bosse / ResistantX, die 37 mensen verwondde voor hij zichzelf van het leven beroofde. Hij liet een afscheidsbrief achter waarin hij wraak zweerde voor een leven van frustratie verooraakt door het gecorrupteerde systeem.

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Het was kort voor half 10 in het midden van de pauze die dag toen hij naar het schoolplein liep. "In de eerste instantie lachten we hem allemaal uit zoals hij erbij liep" zei Dennis, een leerling van Geschwister Scholl, een middelbare school in Emsdetten in een stadje van 36.000 inwoners in het noordwesten van Duitsland, vlak bij Münster.

"Toen begon hij opeens te vuren en iedereen panikeerde". Dennis kon samen met zijn vriend Jannick in veiligheid komen. De kogels raakten een zwangere lerares, de conciërge en zeven leerlingen. Andere mensen raakten gewond door het inademen van rook uit de rookbommen die hij had verspreid rond te school. Geen van de verwondingen waren levensbedreigend. Medeleerlingen noemden Sebastian de 'Man in Black'. "Hij was altijd gekleed in het zwart en verborg zijn heldere blauwe ogen achter een zonnebril, zelfs als de zon niet scheen. Niemand vond hem leuk," zei Jannick. "Maar we wisten niet dat hij tot zoiets in staat zou zijn. Hij kwam altijd zo verlegen over, lachte nooit en stond altijd alleen op het schoolplein." Sebastian pleegde zelfmoord na zijn slachting en het duurde nog uren voor experts de explosieven vastgebonden aan zijn lijf verwijderd waren. Er werden totaal 13 pijpbommen gevonden rond de school en in zijn auto.

Gevuld met haat, gevloeid uit wereldpijn

Het is hetzelfde patroon als bij vele andere schietpartijen op scholen die gemeenschappen over de hele wereld shokeren. Eenzame tieners die geobsedeerd door geweren en gewelddadige computerspelletjes om hun frustraties kwijt te kunnen. Sebastian was een typisch voorbeeld hoe de media hem als wapenfan afschilderde, en die zichzelf filmde in gevechtsuitrusting waar hij een scala aan wapens laat zien, kleine bommen maakte en liet afgaan in het bos samen met een vriend. Hij postte foto's en filmpjes van zichzelf op het internet. Eerder was hij al vervolgd voor illegaal bezit van een Walther P38 pistool. Maar de oorzaak wordt zoals vaak niet besproken.

Sebastian had zichzelf goed voorbereid in de uiteindelijke confrontatie met al de mensen die hem jarenlang onnodig vernederden. "Als je je realiseert dat je nooit geluk hebt gehad in je leven, en de redenen hiervoor dag bij dag opstapelen, is de enige optie verdwijnen uit dat leven", schreef hij in een afscheidsbrief die hij enkele dagen eerder op het internet plaatste. "Het enige wat ik geleerd heb op school is dat ik een loser ben". Groepsdruk lijkt hem zijn adolescentie te hebben achtervolgd. Hij schreef dat hij meer en meer besefte dat hij "in een wereld leefde waar geld alles beslist, zelfs op school. Je moest het nieuwste mobieltje hebben, de nieuwste kleding en de 'juiste vrienden'. Als je dat niet deed was je de aandacht niet waard. Ik walg van deze mensen. Nee, ik walg van de mensheid. Waar doe ik het allemaal voor? Waarom zou ik gaan werken? Om mijn lichaam kapot te werken en op mijn 65ste nog 5 jaar van mijn pensioen te genieten om daarna alsnog in armoede sterven?"

Hij ging zijn oude school binnen met twee geweren met afgezaagde vaten, een pistool, een luchtdrukpistool, 3 bommen vastgebonden aan zijn lichaam, een mes tegen zijn been en verder nog 10 zelfgemaakte bommen en een benzinebom in zijn rugzak. "Het was duidelijk dat hij zou flippen op een gegeven moment, dat merkte ik aan de manier waarop hij praatte", zei een 17-jarige jongen die Sebastian kende. Hij stond bekend als iemand die de hele dag doorbracht met het spelen van computerspelletjes zoals 'Counterstrike', een spel waarin je zoveel mogelijk mensen moet afknallen.

Obsessie met gewelddadige computerspelletjes de oorzaak of verpest door de maatschappij?

"Hij had een enorme haat tegen de wereld. Zijn school, leraren, alles. Hij kookte van woede," zei de jongeman, die liever anoniem wilt blijven. "Hij kon zijn agressie kwijt door te luisteren naar Death Metal muziek en droomde van een leger carrière. Hij vond het wel vet, zo gaan vechten in een uniform of gevechtsuitrusting. Hij droeg graag camouflagekleding." De schoolvakanties bracht Bastian gewoonlijk alleen door, misschien omdat hij zich schaamde omdat hij 2 keer was blijven zitten en was hij vervreemd van zijn klasgenoten. In juni 2004 plaatste hij een bericht op internet waarin hij zijn bedoelingen duidelijk maakte. "Deze angst veranderd langzaam in woede, ik spaar deze woede op en zal alle klootzakken die mijn leven vernield hebben allemaal wreken op een gegeven moment. Voor degenen die het nog niet snappen: Ja, dit is een schietpartij".

Toch eindigde hij zijn school in 2005 met goede cijfers, maar zijn woede bleef. "Veel van mijn woede zal worden gericht op leraren, omdat dat mensen zijn die mijn leven hebben veranderd tegen mijn wil en zorgden dat ik nu sta waar ik sta: op het slagveld. Ik haat jullie! Jullie moeten allemaal sterven! Sinds mijn 6de neemt iedereen me in de zeik! Nu gaan jullie ervoor boeten. Toch wil ik mijn excuses aanbieden aan iedereen die iets voor mij betekend en die goed waren voor mij. Ik ben weg nu".

Rudolf Egg, een criminele psycholoog, beschreef de brief als een 'schrijnend document' met een laatste kreet om hulp. Het is niet bekend hoe de relatie was met zijn ouders. Hij ging vaak jagen met zijn vader. Beiden stortten in na het horen van het nieuws en werden in het ziekenhuis behandeld voor shock. Zijn broer en zus kregen ook slachtofferhulp.

Bastian B. / ResistantX German school shooter's suicide letter

If you know you're so hurt the wounds will never heal... and you see hints for this every day, you have no option left than to kill yourself in order to protect your dignity... This is what I decided to do. Others might continue and make a fool out of themselves, but in life there is no coming back like in the movies.

They say you have to go to school to learn for life, in order to have a happy one. But it's meaningless to possess the biggest car or house, the most beautiful woman, if all that's poisoned anyway as it tends to be in everyday's hate. If your relationship breaks apart, your car needs fuel you're no longer able to pay after having hard times in life, and if nobody's there to visit you.

The only thing you get teached *intensively* at school is, that you're a looser. Anyone of you. That your worth is relative to the exploitation of feelings when they give things a name and reduce them to functions. Like when they explain love songs, tell you they'd consist of 'touchy' messages. You know what they're doing with that, their satanic teacher jokes about everything.

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Anyway, for the first years at school this is true, I was lost in greedyness and wanted to become famous, longed to have lots of friends, people who don't see you as a person but their status symbol, a feature which makes them feel -> or look better in the scene.

But then I crossed the line and woke up. I realised the world as it occured to me was a view which had been corrupted, that all had become an illusion, a mix of me trying to just live, broken by the attempt to fit in, an illusion made by certain media. The more I looked at it, the more I realized what kind of world I had gotten into. One ruled by materialism. It was all about money or to be exact: to be a bigger devil than others due to more money. You just got to have the newest mobile phone, clothings, and the right 'friends'. If you failed to own such, you'd not be worth to be seen as an existing person.

And these types are called 'Jocks' in the US, the lying backstabbing lazy regional public relation assholes, young fellows hateful like certain old men, all trying to step on others due to expensive clothes or beautiful girls at their side. I somehow hate such people, and sometimes they seem to have infected so many others, that I'd rather tend to say: I hate humans in general. Even if just desparation, still: reality is you're broken and dead already, so doesn't really matter.

In the 18 years of my life, I've had to face the fact one can only be happy if you fit in a certain style the types falsely claim to be the one of the masses or society in general. Knowing evil's behind it, I couldn't do that.
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Sometimes I tell myself "I'm free! Noone has the right to interfere with my life...

(hint: To further inflict so I can't stop the pain of my poisoned psyche others raped. I want to achieve something in life, but always have been backstabbed and what I worked for been taken from me. The German illness, 50 year olds mobbed by youngers, and somewhen dying of cancer, while been ridiculed by others who don't understand or falsely interpreted all you wanted and 'got complicated' or 'too sensible' for: a little comfort in life, having something to build on. Not to hear cusses every day. They behave like pigs, when they talk and blabber 10 prejudices per minute. Just because it's told one has advantages this way, to blame everything on some scape goat, some assumed mentally ill person while you are the false model citizen. Competition? No problem, just denounce the other to be evil, so you rip her/him off, especially if that person's older than you are. All you got to do is to be annoying the most disgusting way, and to pretend that's just positive vitality of patriotic guys - while others "are just weak faggots".)

... but if one does will face consequences he doesn't expect." (because they use hidden violence, and are used to laugh lateron about the idiots who try to fight against such with peaceful words, for which they get kicked their asses by mislead authorities.)
Just feels so good to counter: "No Politician, elected after having spammed the whole fucking city, has the right to make laws wished by his financers, which further limit my freedoms. No cop has the right to take my gun away from me, while he's got one at his chest, the types who play action heroes searching the homes of minorities in order to make nice police PR in the newspaper, calling it 'drug hunts'.
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Why all of this? How am I supposed to work, to take part in society, if I have to leave school so destroyed that most likely I won't get a completed vocational training and have to live like a social aid case, being spit on by losers? Why is it so easy to eliminate competition due to hate speech and mobbing these days? Why are our laws such crap?

Sometimes this carries me away and I argue on a basis which I, with my destroyed outsider-nerves will never reach... It's the outside perspective where I transfer my pain and don't see life has more to give, and the luckier ones perhaps won't understand me. In these moments of desperation, I tend to say: "why should I work my ass off in order to get a pension at age 65 but be so destroyed I'll die 5 years later?" German desillusion heavily judged upon in the aftermath, because they assume you're too weak for life, and have 'emotional problems' with the fact you're gonna die somewhen.
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What I mean but can't express anymore is: Yes, you can build a house, have kids etc.. But what's the point? Modern life is poisoned by satanic jokes, so you symbolize that all good things die, the house, your children, everything. Nothing makes sense anymore. So you try to fill it with ideology as teached in school, to force a meaning shorter than reality: The too much earning boss, or Nazis who tell you you're living in an order majority wants this way.

No, I don't want these interpretations. There is only one choice left to make my life meaningful, and I won't waste it like the others before me did. Perhaps my life could have taken another direction, but to be realistic, as an honest German you have hard times to survive due to the spreading mass satanism in the German society. Yes, there are lots of folks playing counter culture heroes, wearing rivet stuff calling themselves 'alternative': while it's just a lie to get more out of life.

The devils have begun the fight, not me. My actions are a result of their world, one too controlling for you, ripping your soul off no matter if you want it or not, then blaming you to have taken a pact with the devil and be the evil guy they need.
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To the types who did this: You ridiculed me, the same I'll soon have done to you, just another flavour of humour! :))

From 1994 till 2003/04, 10 years, I longed to have friends, took so much effort in order to take part, just have a little fun, something in life, you know. When in 1998 I went to the GSS, they began with status symbols, clothings, friends, mobiles phones (I hate to repeat myself, here, but esp. handies spam our German world with dumbest possible mean comments). I did the same, I tried to. Then I woke up, saw I'd just get used and people behind my back were laughing about me because I've not the gift to be so inconsiderate like they are, to simply sell my soul and don't give a shit. Somewhen I vowed vengeance.

This revenche hopefully will be so brutal and regardless I hope it has a chance to shock you. I want you to have the same wounds even humans like you will never forget.
I want to show people nobody has the right to disown and molest lifes justifying this on behalf of 'law' or religion.
I want that my face will burn into the heads of my enemies.
I will no longer run away.
I will give my part to the revolution of the so-called 'outcast Germans'.
I want to take R.E.V.E.N.G.E.
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Of course, most students who raped my soul aren't on the GSS, anymore. But you have to know two things about contemporary Germany:
1. The schools are so poisoned, that it's easy to inflict your vengeance because there are so many carrying guilt inside them. So, when I call myself a 'virus to destroy the satanic program', it's not really important where I start.
2. The main goal are teachers, persons who destroyed my life against the confessing believers' free will, who interfered in a way I became 'freak', and put me out there where I stand right now: on a battlefield. Those devilish teachers are still on this goddamn school, nearly all of them.
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The life as we see it today is the poorest one the world can possibly provide!

However you call it ->
S.T.W.P.D. - School, vocational Training, Work, Pension, Death:
That's the curriculum vitae of humans today, I mean in the sense of no hope, without the chance to keep aspects of youth culture or love. You just move from one phase to another and the farer you get the more you die inside. There are even types like me who suffered so much it's already reduced to just S.D. for: School, Death. What's normal, anyway?

They say society expects it. Plus so freaking easy, to have relentless fun and advantages and before it backfires, just denounce someone in order to make her/him a scape goat. So, today Punks, the poor, assumed 'mass murderers', Gothics, gay people etc. are preferred targets to be called 'abnormal', to not fulfill society's expectations. "They just can't do or don't want to so please, state authorities, let us fool you, they are the culprits after we forced them into this corner." ;)

I give a shit about you! I just want to be free and I am frightened my last words will be put against me, because you know, today it's so easy to not see. You are a sadist asshole in school, and professional training + job life, lateron. Even quite many who had luck not to become bullied don't really face it. Our culture highly depends on others getting exploitet, as for the most animals many are cruel to before we eat them, the human pigs talking about a good piece of meat as if it's the most innocent food on earth, denying the shame of our culture, to eat what we kept standing in it's own shit all live.

Interesting theory: Give weapons to everyone and you'll see how capable people are on solving problems peacefully without unfair interference or backstabbing denounciation. Another take on this: If someone dies, well, then he's dead, death belongs to life, doesn't it? If relatives can't cope with that after a rapist got shot: well, then they should commit suicide just as they expect us to do after we got raped. So what? Nobody will bar them from doing this... but when it comes to us, they say: "please, kill yourself in silence so nobody will talk about your reasons afterwards!!"
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S.T.W.P.D. here in Germany begins at age 6 with the first day at school. The 'way of socialising' teachers call it, 'to fit in', of course in a relatively diabolic way, in compliance to an acclaimed majority. Let's say, in case of quite some schools, a kid who doesn't want to become a pig gets confronted with counselling. Her/His parents due to evil media reports made control maniacs, and somewhen police will involve, when you are on drugs or run away.
School attendance is whitewashed violence.
Who gets forced, looses a vital piece of her/his freedom.
Esp. when not necessary because one's honest from his very nature, they feel obliged to ensure you pay taxes or comply speed limits, you don't become a drug addict or whatsoever: because this way they can burn themselves into your skin. This is the sense of it all, to inflict wounds that'll never heal and the more you get of those, the more the sadists have you in control, while at the same time flexible modern satanism blames this kind of behavior on sectists to keep their nice+clean public ralations interface...
And of course in school teachers claim this to be 'popular government' as it sounded like in eastern Germany. Up to a level where people begin to prefer anarchy.
Some say it already worked 15 years ago, so perhaps there's reason to hope. (fall of the Berlin wall)
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After my deed, of course some fat politicians will make good sounding comments like "Now it's time for us all to stick together after facing such horrible loss!" or "We have to act in concert in order to resist evil". But they do so just to present themselves as a solution to a problem they in the first place silently created! They are satanists.

It the GSS, it was the same... you never got a hold of this fat piece of principal shit, but when the school performed theatre, she always was the first to present herself with a big fat smile, ensuring the event was seen as her personal achievement.
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The motive of satanism, to claim, take, abuse, have fun while blaming others has gotten inflationist in Germany, because it's so freakin' easy. The old hate is widespread, it's in Nazis, German Hiphoppers/big mouthed Turks, even state authorities and ones working for them (those not true to our nation, just there for the sake of a permanent job and undermining it's laws for 'very important people'=making themselves of use for corruption, in order to have a career).

I can't hold it back anymore, because I'll die for those' stupid greedyness: Nazis, HipHoppers, turks, state, civil servants, false Christians...simply all of them suck and should be eviscerated! (I don't use the term "Turks" racist or s.th., just for all the turkish RAP militants who came to Germany, take advantage of our social system and then let it all hang out under the hood of multiculturalism. It's so hurting the way they behave, they should all be gased! No Jews, no black or Dutch people, just the militants who can do on German streets whatever crime they want, because the state authorities will prosecute minorities for that! What am I writing?! I'm not a fucking Nazi!!)
I hate you so much and your annoying way! You all have to die!

Since age 6 I got hurt by your kind! Now it's your turn to pay for it!
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Well, as I know blind fascist policemen will consfiscate my videos, school books, diaries, simply everything, I took care of that so some things might survive the censorship.

In the end, I want to thank all people who meant something, or ever were good to me, and to excuse myself for all this!

I'm gone.

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